I never figured I'd be posting this on a forum like this, but there's no harm in being honest, so I'll tell you!
I didn't always feel great waking up each day. In fact, just a few years ago, I absolutely hated life. Things get shitty, and I felt like I just had to deal with it that way. I'm bipolar, have huge social anxiety, and that makes anything I have to do that involves leaving my room extremely shitty. The only thing that was keeping me going over the years was my dog, which sometimes wasn't enough.
About my dog - He's a Shetland Sheepdog named Turner. He's 7 years old now. I love him more than anything, he's pretty much my best friend. He's never let me down, and isn't going to screw me over. What does he have in life to be happy about? Pretty much, me. He depends on me to give him a good life, which is always what I told myself any time I thought about ending everything. I still have to tell myself that sometimes.
I've changed in the last year or so though, I decided to take control of my life a bit more and stop being a pussy. I stopped caring so much what other people think. Things won't get better if I hibernate in my room forever. Things sure aren't perfect now, but I have a better way of looking at things now, and know that things will be better. The worse thing that can happen to me is I lose everything I have, am homeless on the street, and eventually die. It doesn't sound too bad to me when I think that all I wanted was to die in the first place.
Plus I've actually been excited about things lately (Diablo III one of them!) so I kind of want to stick around for a bit!
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Apr 20, 2012I've been in the beta since October and I'm still playing it, so it must be pretty awesome. There isn't much content to it, of course, but it's a beta so what can you expect? I just realized I've been playing since beta patch 4... jeez. Seen a lot of changes, and I really like where it's at now. I never get bored in the beta. I will farm my arse off just to see how high of DPS/Magic Find/Gold Find/etc that I can get. I've also only been playing solo, except for a few times I ran through with a buddy of mine.Posted in: Diablo III General Discussion
I'm glad everyone is going to get a chance to play. It's nice for people to be able to play the classes they are interested in and see how they feel so they can decide before launch what they want to start with.
Have a good weekend killing, everyone!
Apr 18, 2012A lot of people weren't sure it was a bug though. Do you really believe everything Blizzard says (lol). A lot of people were hoping that they would surprise everyone with a chance to play. Some people logged in because others said they could, but probably didn't know nothing was said by Blizzard about it.Posted in: Diablo III General Discussion
Really, I don't think anyone has anything to worry about. It was a mistake, and made a lot of people really happy for a short time.
DON'T BAN HAPPINESS!
Apr 17, 2012Jay Wilson said it's a change that will be permanent:Posted in: Hardcore Discussion
Dec 9, 2011Posted in: Diablo III General DiscussionQuote from WishedHeHadBeta
lame. oh well. i hate having to click on that many spells. even 6 is too much. D2 had like 2 max. sometimes just one. one and teleport, lol. in wow i HATED clicking that many spells, id often not use a lot of my spells cuz i didnt want to click on them or click on yet another hot key. bleh
That's why you're meant to just faceroll your keyboard.
Dec 9, 2011Farnsworth says Hello!Posted in: Off-Topic
These are my two cats. The one doesn't have a name really atm, but I think calling them Herp and Derp would be fitting.
(Farnsworth is on the right)
@StickyDan Your signature pictures always amuse me, but I'm sad that you changed it from the last one. I found this for you though:
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Jul 2, 2012Posted in: Fan ArtQuote from Aerisot
He did not "fall" from the heavens, he was kicked out after taking off his wings..after having a pissing argument with imperius whom he already knew was high tempered, watch the cinematic again, he is surprised when the strange tenticals come out and drag him into the ground, he even struggles against him.
He chose to become mortal we saw that. I imagine he knew he wasn't going to be able to just keep strolling around as a mortal in the High Heavens, or else why would he have even done it. He wanted to come help Humanity.
His character is just so badly developed compared to how he was in D2, In the Act 2 cinematic he shows Leah what happened to him, in the Act 3 cinematic he pulls Leah out of her dream like state while Azmodan was talking to her, and in Act 4 he reclaims his spot as part of the council only this time as a mortal and as Wisdom...What? He actually doesn't do anything, During the Diablo fight he is standing outside.
His character in D2, awesome for the time because not many games had memorable characters, looked cool, but he was about as deep and developed as a rock. The Sinwar helped show us a lot of other facets to his character other than "righteous angel guy". D3 showed us more of his caring side.
The only kickass thing he does was break the gate him which seigebreaker is behind...Oh but I forgot...right after he does that, he runs behind you like a coward
You're right. He should have just stood there and died I guess, that would have been more badass. Not to mention game mechanics.
Also, I didn't want to mention that he was a sulking crybaby in Act 4 until you find him again, but he was.
He is mortal and a living being, he's entitled to feelings. Even angels and demons have emotion. This was the first time in thousands of years that the High Heavens had ever been breeched, lots of his old brethren have been killed, Malthael has already gone missing, Imperius who he used to be close to is angry at him and Auriel is captured and possibly dead.
Another thing that bugs me, If he is now mortal and can die, how exactly did he survive falling form heaven in a flaming meteor through the roof and 5 stories into the cathedral and then laying in blue flames until your hero taps him on the shoulder?
The wings shielded him from the fall with the last of their power? Maybe Eldruin did something to protect him and that's why it shattered? Maybe he's mortal but still a lot more durable than a human so a fall wouldn't kill him?
I thought overall it was a pretty decent story. Leah I didn't like, they tried to hard with her, but they took the story of the Diablo series which it really didn't even have much of one in the game timeline and it fleshed it out a lot more. It gave us a lot more on the angels, a lot of plot devices, backstory, and set up future events to continue.
Besides, what does ANY of that have to do with how badass a tattoo looks still?
Jul 2, 2012My question would be, why on earth would you get a tattoo of something unoriginal (by this I mean not of your own work or ideas) in the first place, you're marking your body for life - this is the thing I see people doing all too often, they see something they like in a magazine/game/movie or whatever and then get it emblazoned into their flesh, without wondering if in a few years time they could stand to even look in the mirror at it.Posted in: Fan Art
I've got tattoos, but made the decision to dwell on original designs drawn in part by myself and the artist (he did most of it as my artwork is not up there lol), 16 years later I still look at them and admire them, is it to everyone's taste? no, not all the time, but I'd rather something that was a part of me in some form than something popular drawn by an artist for a video game.
I'm not saying you shouldn't have got it, that was entirely up to you to decide, it's just not something that makes sense to me.
May 22, 2012Why are people so ungrateful for what blizzard has done for us?Posted in: Diablo III General Discussion
There are bugs in the system ill grant you that but they are trying to fix them.
All day in general chat i see people complaing about how blizz sucks they wasted there money bla bla, like they are entitled to a game just because they payed money for it.
You dont own this game my friends and if you dont believe me read the TOS agreement.... your renting the right to play.... they own it and can take it from you at any time for no reason at all.
Have some Gd appreciation for what these people have givin you.
i love the diablo franchise and i appreciate what blizz gave me...... patience and understanding people... they give it to us everyday.
May 13, 2012Posted in: General DiscussionQuote from Hardkoar
Cool story bro, but why should we give a fuck?
Dunno bout the rest of the guys around here but I come to this forum to read DIABLO 3 related posts, not some guy getting dumped or writing a love letter to his GF.
If you don't care, why post here? The world doesn't revolve around you ;]
May 13, 2012Just wanted to make a post about my girlfriend. I started going out with her right around the time Diablo 3 was first announced, and that was something I told her I couldn't wait for that it was going to be the best game ever and that we totally had to play it. We've gone through a lot of different struggles and challenges in our relationship, dealing with distance, school and communication. She went from being a person who rarely played video games at all to being a total gamer like me that I can talk to about game content and play hardcore games with me like SC2.Posted in: General Discussion
We've been living together for quite sometime, and she recently had to go away for an internship on the other side of the world in Hong Kong and I miss her greatly, what I'm more sad about is that she can't play Diablo with me when it releases. I know that we can play when she gets back, I've come to terms with that, but it's what she told me the other day.
She said that she really enjoys sharing the experiences with me, with going to the midnight launch, and opening up that collector's edition box, and looking through all the goodies. She said she really missed not being able to go with me to this midnight release because it has been something I've been following since the beginning of our relationship.
I think its weird how some people say women can't be gamers and how it's a male only thing. I know that my girl could give them a run for their money.
What I'm really trying to say though, is thanks, for being there for me, and not only learning about my hobby, but making it something you enjoy too, and understand its meaning to me.
Cheers to all the girls who take care of us gamer guys!
May 13, 2012As long as I remember, I was afraid of death. When I was little, my grandparents, who are religious, told me that after someone dies, they go to heaven or hell, depending on how they acted in this life, but somehow, I never bought it. I don't believe that there is an afterlife, although I cannot explain why are conscious. As I think of it, it's not logical that a being should be conscious, and be able to think about the world. It seams almost not of this universe. When ever I try to imagine myself not existing, or at least my consciousness not existing, I start panicking, because I don't WANT to be not alive.Posted in: Off-Topic
I find it depressing that I am waiting for something, because, I always do, and when the moment comes that I get, or see, or whatever, that which I was waiting for, I realize that a day will come when I won't exist anymore.
Even if I never die, what can I look forward to... my family dying, humans evolving into something that I won't be able to familiarize with, the end of the solar system, the end of the universe... And even if I find a way to somehow escape this universe when it ends, there is no guaranty that the next one will have the same laws of physics (if the multiverse theory is correct). Or If, when this universe comes to an end, I somehow find a big enough wormhole to transport me to the beginning of this universe. Then again, after an infinite number of loops, there would be infinite copies of me... where would I go then...
I am currently studying Molecular Biology, with hopes of becoming a Genetic Engineer. I know that the secret to longevity is in the genes, once it is cracked, humans will be able to live 150 years and longer.
It is not impossible to live for ever, as there are some organisms that can. There are species of jellyfish that go through different cycles of life and can go through them an infinite number of times (they die of disease, predators and similar stuff). Cancer cells can divide an infinite number of times (unlike other cells), which makes them essentially immortal (unless you count cell division as death of a mother cell, and birth of daughter cells, which in terms of a multicellular organism means nothing).
But as I said... even if science succeeds in making humans immortal, what then...
May 13, 2012This is a great question, because I have had plenty of times when I felt the same way you seem to, where I just couldn't care less about the next day. Usually it happens at times when I feel like I'm far away from achieving my goals.Posted in: Off-Topic
The best cure is to do work, in my case. I try to make sure I always have a project, just to avoid feeling that intense boredom and apathy that comes with not having a purpose. My projects are what get me up in the morning.
When I say projects, specifically I mean making art, making games, writing, building my website, exercise (working on my physique as a project, basically), anything that has a long term goal with short-term manageable chunks. I don't necessarily have to finish anything (I often don't) but just having something to work on, even if I end up abandoning it and trying something else, gives me a reason to keep going. Plus, its good practice.
The toughest part about this is overcoming the initial apathy (which comes in the form of procrastination) in order to start. Its really just a habit you have to build. I still haven't conquered procrastination.
May 12, 2012Let's think about it.Posted in: Off-Topic
Family is a good reason. But you can lose your family and be without a reason to move on.
Love is a good reason. But you may lose the ones you love, not be loved at all, or even don't feel love.
Pleasure? Fades. Ambition? You either fail or succeed, and them what? Empty.
If you stop and think about none of these are really good reasons to move on. I think a good reason to move on is to realize the magnificent thing that is: intelligent life. Because you're alive and you're intelligent you are able to understand what family means. You are able to think about the abstract nature of love, about its passionate/temporary side, about its transcendent/deep side. You can eventually evolve to more sophisticated pleasures and wiser ambitions. You are alive and you are able to think. Being able to think by itself doesn't make you any more physically or socially more powerful. True. And yet...you have an intelligent life and in the realm of thought there is no certain limit to your power.
Intelligence is what gives meaning to the things that compose our existence, there is no meaning without understanding. Intelligence is what gives depth to our experiences. Even being sad, even felling bad may be a pleasure as an experience for our mind (ever heard of romanticism?).
Being a living intelligent being...we really have no idea how we came to be what we are, yet we are. It's a gift. Not being alive or being unintelligent....seems so final. Yet life is so full of possibilities.
If you want to understand more about life i'd recommend thinking about who you are. And i mean who you really are. Not the circumstances around your existence, not where you live, or how you live, or you physical appearance, or your social position. But who you are. An intelligent living being.
We have come to know many beautiful and incredible things in nature and in the universe. We even created some awesome things.
We do not know everything. In fact we know almost nothing. But as far as we know...we're the best thing we've ever met.
May 12, 2012Posted in: Off-TopicQuote from Red_Panda
I don't think I'd ever kill myself. Although...I have hoped that I would simply not wake up one morning since I was about 8 or 9..
I've thought about it before, in times of grief and laughably in times of pure boredom. The thought comes out when I deeply think about society, and what I'm supposed to do in the eyes of others, and about when I'm older. But (and sure this sounds kinda cheesy) I literally look outside, either at the mountains or the trees, or my favorite; The clouds. And I just get this, feeling I guess you'd call it. I realize that sure one day I will die, but I'm pretty damn positive I'll never come back to life. I want to believe in God, but deep down I know for sure that I'm an animal, just like all the other animals, living on this world just like everything else, and when I die, that'l be it. I REALLY wish there's a heaven, but it just doesn't make sense, ya know?
So what keep me alive and going? It literally boils down for me to this; Since I'll be dying one day, I might as well stay alive as long as possible, doing whatever makes me happy, considering I probably won't be alive again.
May 10, 2012Everyone and their dog is making posts about trying to get world's first 60. I'm here to tell you why its not a big deal, and suggest an alternative!Posted in: Diablo III General Discussion
1.) No one remembers who gets the first level capped character, it will not bring you fame or E-peen. There will be many people at level 60 within days of release, and no one will give a shit about it by the end of the month.
2.) No one person will get first 60, because at least a dozen people will claim that they did it. AFAIK there's no way to prove it short of screenshots/video/other easily faked methods.
3.) Thousands of people will hit level cap within a few hours of the first person who manages it. You aren't special, you merely had the free time and perhaps a little more than your fair share of luck (IE XP shrines, finding the right path on your first try in a lot of places, etc)
Being able to invest the kind of time to reach 60 in a few days isn't an accomplishment. This is from someone who took time off work for release--I, like you, could be doing this exact thing. However, my first level 60 will probably be my slowest, since this will be my first time playing the game and I want to experience it fully. If I were to race to level 60, I would ruin the game for myself, enjoying it less in the name of a worthless goal.
Not everyone has to agree with me, but I hope some of you will be dissuaded from this stupidity and avoid ruining your first play through.
If you are looking for something more worthwhile, the first person/group to beat Inferno will probably be much more prominent, seeing as its actually a skill challenge instead of a time investment. Unlike the race to 60, Inferno is something that not everyone can do, and is a real accomplishment.
One component of that WILL be hitting level 60 quickly, but that is not THE goal, and it doesn't require that you do it first--only that you do it in a timely fashion. Skill will be the biggest component beyond that point, and the best individuals and groups will get ahead not by crunching (well, not entirely) but by being tactical and coordinating.
As an example of how this might appeal to people who ARE only interested in e-peen, its worth noting that the important and memorable "world firsts" of games like WoW were not hitting level caps, but defeating big tough raid bosses.
*Prepares for onslaught of hatred for mentioning WOW*
The point is that this leveling mentality is an artifact from the silly ladder system in Diablo 2, and the broken way the level cap operated (IE being far higher than anyone ever had any need to attain). Don't let the flaws of D2 corrupt your first experience of D3!
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