What keeps me going? The fact that there are people around me who would be very hurt if I decide to stop going. That would be selfish.
I used to think the exact same thing. My first girlfriend attempted to commit suicide on a few occasions. I say attempted because anyone that really wants to, won't fail. She was just trying to get people's attention. But I digress. You must understand, that saying it's "selfish" is a very judgmental attitude. The person that is thinking about suicide is being selfish by a happy person's point of view, but to them they are just scared and tired. They are looking for relief in the last place they want to. Nobody really wants to die, they want relief from whatever is causing them stress and sorrow. People that want to commit suicide are in all accounts "unhealthy". I don't mean to affend by saying that, but I believe thoughts of suicide come from an unhealthy lifestyle and mind. (I've been there) Saying they are being selfish is like calling a person with down syndrome a retard. Its not fair to judge them for their feelings.
All the time throughout school. During the summer, I would spend time with my mother and step dad and that was a terrible household. Both were drunks and drug addicts and I was "bullied" there as well you may say. I love the nature vs nurture debate and will always side with nurture. But I think I turned out pretty good given my situation.
I have a hard time getting out of bed every day. I manage now, but it used to be much worse. The big reason I find it hard is the lack of conviction to my life. Everyday I wake up not knowing if what I am doing is going to make me happier later in life. The worst thing I think about is making it to the end and being disappointed that I never accomplished what I wanted to.
I think the best advice I could give to someone in a similar situation, is to find what makes you happy. Don't say you've never been happy cause that would be a lie. Truely look at yourself and your past and think about it. It could be something as simple as an art form, or a sport. It could be something as simple as a hobby. Take that and make goals for yourself. WRITE THEM DOWN! Place them in areas where you can read them everyday multiple times a day. Maybe you need to practice, or work for money to support the hobby. Maybe its working out or some other self improvement. But make sure you think about it throughout the day.
For me, my endgame consists of owning a home, having a wife and kids. I want the American dream. That is what I think will make me happy. Family that cares about me as much as I care for them. I want to own property and be able to afford to do anything for my wife and kids. So my goals are to work hard, learn new trades, keep myself healthy, to better my chances of finding a good girl and keep myself busy.
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I used to think the exact same thing. My first girlfriend attempted to commit suicide on a few occasions. I say attempted because anyone that really wants to, won't fail. She was just trying to get people's attention. But I digress. You must understand, that saying it's "selfish" is a very judgmental attitude. The person that is thinking about suicide is being selfish by a happy person's point of view, but to them they are just scared and tired. They are looking for relief in the last place they want to. Nobody really wants to die, they want relief from whatever is causing them stress and sorrow. People that want to commit suicide are in all accounts "unhealthy". I don't mean to affend by saying that, but I believe thoughts of suicide come from an unhealthy lifestyle and mind. (I've been there) Saying they are being selfish is like calling a person with down syndrome a retard. Its not fair to judge them for their feelings.
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All the time throughout school. During the summer, I would spend time with my mother and step dad and that was a terrible household. Both were drunks and drug addicts and I was "bullied" there as well you may say. I love the nature vs nurture debate and will always side with nurture. But I think I turned out pretty good given my situation.
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I think the best advice I could give to someone in a similar situation, is to find what makes you happy. Don't say you've never been happy cause that would be a lie. Truely look at yourself and your past and think about it. It could be something as simple as an art form, or a sport. It could be something as simple as a hobby. Take that and make goals for yourself. WRITE THEM DOWN! Place them in areas where you can read them everyday multiple times a day. Maybe you need to practice, or work for money to support the hobby. Maybe its working out or some other self improvement. But make sure you think about it throughout the day.
For me, my endgame consists of owning a home, having a wife and kids. I want the American dream. That is what I think will make me happy. Family that cares about me as much as I care for them. I want to own property and be able to afford to do anything for my wife and kids. So my goals are to work hard, learn new trades, keep myself healthy, to better my chances of finding a good girl and keep myself busy.