I saw The Dark Knight Rises last night, and I'm mixed about it. It was great but I think that a second viewing would give me a better understanding of it. The movie was chaotic as fuck and I should have expected that after TDK. Shitty thing is I went out for a smoke halfway through and something important happened that I missed. When I get paid on the 31st I'll definitely be thinking about seeing it again.
why would you go out for a smoke in the middle of a movie? don't get me wrong, I smoke too, but in the middle of a movie? you need to get your anxiety down asap
Yeh, I do. I've been smoking way too much as of recent, and I'm trying to cut down. Eventually I will quit but I need to get to the point where I'm only having one every two hours. I notice the more bored I get the more I'll go out for cigarettes, even if I just had one. Same thing when I'm anxious, depressed, or upset in any way. It's quite unpleasant to smoke two cigarettes within an hour yet I find myself doing that quite often regardless.
So... yeah... this just happened and I had to share it. My friend, orange, posted some status update that made me think "Wow, he's trying too hard to be controversial." but instead of replying and calling him hipster I decided to play along and be sort of flippant too.
Unfortunately I don't think anyone but orange understood my humor.
The problem with that kind of ironic humor is that huge number of people believe that bullshit with unflinching devotion. It's hard to lampoon, because they are living caricatures.
Well... I can see how the general idea of the words is fine and dandy, but I went out of my way to turn it into innuendo and people still gobbled it up. I actually ended up getting more likes later on until finally I had to just come out and post this picture.
Before people more people started to realize and actually read the words instead of just trying to interpret the meaning.
So my ssd arrives at my local ups store today at 740 am. And I'm thinking, they'll definitely deliver it to me today. And they don't even deliver on Saturday? Gay.
Man I was gonna come home tonight and install my OS on this thing and it was gonna be sweeeeet. Now I gotta wait till Monday! Total drag! Do they let you pick it up from their store? If I had known they didn't deliver on Saturday I would've picked it up on my way to work today.
Well I got home last night and it turned out it came in the regular mail.
I was quite happy but apparently OCZ Agility 3's come locked with SATA 2 for some reason and you gotta do all these extra steps to make sure it's running at full speed. So even though it's fast right now, it will be even faster once I fix this problem. Cause now I'm only getting about 200mb read and write speeds.
I've gotten Saturday deliveries from UPS without asking for it. Got a Saturday delivery from Fedex too.
UPS had a special delivery called not surprisingly Saturday delivery, but to be fair the last time I knew anything about how UPS worked when I was shipping stuff for my job in 1989 they might have changed their service offerings since then a bit.
Damn. I used drugs again yesterday for the second time this week. Shouldn't have done that. I let my depression get to me and I hate letting it win. I've felt mentally unwell for the last two weeks and I've been getting fed up, which isn't like me at all. I've got to work on this so I feel in control again, because I've been doing very well up until now. It's shitty when you end up feeling like your old self, when the way you used to be wasn't a good way to live at all. If I could go back four or five years and make a change I wouldn't start using drugs in the first place. That's for sure.
I'm guessing you have a doctor you see about this, why not talk to them about what you can do? It may just be time to cycle some meds around. I know you build up a resistance after a while and they need to be changed out, has happened to me before. Went through a really rough period when my meds had stopped working and I really didn't even realize it but it was causing a lot of problems in my personal life and I ended up almost losing my family.
Got my meds switched over and things started getting better again.
Damn. I used drugs again yesterday for the second time this week. Shouldn't have done that. I let my depression get to me and I hate letting it win. I've felt mentally unwell for the last two weeks and I've been getting fed up, which isn't like me at all. I've got to work on this so I feel in control again, because I've been doing very well up until now. It's shitty when you end up feeling like your old self, when the way you used to be wasn't a good way to live at all. If I could go back four or five years and make a change I wouldn't start using drugs in the first place. That's for sure.
All one has control over is the time they wake up until the time they go to sleep. When life was difficult like that for me years ago, I would try to find someone else who had worse problems and try to help them by giving them an ear. That way I redirected my focus to something other than myself.
One day I realized just how powerful that was quite by accident, literally an accident. I was walking down a sidewalk feeling bad about things in my life when this guy who was crossing the street near me fell backwards and nailed his head on the street corner. He had an epileptic seizure, hitting his head didn't help, before I new it I was putting my jacket over him and waiting for the ambulance. From that point forward my entire day totally changed, I was consumed in thought for what happened to that guy. It wasn't until the following day I stopped and realized I had completely lost focus of my own problems which up until that point had consumed my thoughts.
I'm guessing you have a doctor you see about this, why not talk to them about what you can do? It may just be time to cycle some meds around. I know you build up a resistance after a while and they need to be changed out, has happened to me before. Went through a really rough period when my meds had stopped working and I really didn't even realize it but it was causing a lot of problems in my personal life and I ended up almost losing my family.
Got my meds switched over and things started getting better again.
I think that the depression had a lot to do with having way too much downtime and doing the same shit everyday. When all you do is play video games or read you kind of get stuck in a rut, at least I do anyways. I spent the last two days brainstorming new activities to get involved in (some that even require exercise!) and today I made plans for this week to get out of the house and actually do those things. I'll be starting D&D again Wednesday! I haven't played Dungeons & Dragons since high school. I'm pretty excited. It's really refreshing to have a week full of interesting things ahead and it's really lifted my spirits.
For the longest time I was just dealing with my issues and doing the same things because I wasn't ready to expand my horizons and meet new people. I guess I kind of got a little bit stuck for a while there.
Another thing, I can't really switch my depression medication. I'm on 375mg of Effexor and the withdrawal symptoms are legendary, even if you decrease the dosage gradually. I am honestly fucking SCARED to have to switch my Effexor, especially considering I'm on such a high dose. If you look it up you'll know what I mean.
As a star-child who did his fair share of drugs, I can sympathize with you. I suggest breaking your normal schedule for a week. Do new things, keep a journal, stay active, and try to avoid the usual trigger motions. Start to introduce a little of your normal routine at a time.
(Heavy emphasis on exercise and regular sleep schedule. Those are absolutely instrumental in breaking addiction, depression, and generally getting out of a "funk.")
As a star-child who did his fair share of drugs, I can sympathize with you. I suggest breaking your normal schedule for a week. Do new things, keep a journal, stay active, and try to avoid the usual trigger motions. Start to introduce a little of your normal routine at a time.
(Heavy emphasis on exercise and regular sleep schedule. Those are absolutely instrumental in breaking addiction, depression, and generally getting out of a "funk.")
I'm pretty much following your feedback completely, minus the keep a journal part. For some reason I feel worse every time I journal.
As a star-child who did his fair share of drugs, I can sympathize with you. I suggest breaking your normal schedule for a week. Do new things, keep a journal, stay active, and try to avoid the usual trigger motions. Start to introduce a little of your normal routine at a time.
(Heavy emphasis on exercise and regular sleep schedule. Those are absolutely instrumental in breaking addiction, depression, and generally getting out of a "funk.")
I'm pretty much following your feedback completely, minus the keep a journal part. For some reason I feel worse every time I journal.
Thank you!
Glad I could help. Oh, and don't be afraid of the journal. It doesn't have to be overly introspective. Try just coming up with a joke or some amusing anecdote. The exercise is more to keep the mind at work (and not working on itself) than anything else. Idle hands and all that.
Man the world dropped off the edge here, hardly no one posts anymore.
People on vacation and butthurt people leaving. The butthurt seems to attribute to a few posters I can name who no longer post here, some are on vacation, and well then there is the rest (which isn't much).
I'm reducing my posting to the point of nil; this site just brings me down with all the butthurt I simply don't care anymore. I also seem to get a lot of backlash for making fun of people's stupid posts (there are so many), while it doesn't bother me personally it sure gets old. Granted I don't have the best vocabulary and have trouble articulating my thoughts probably don’t help haha.
Everything is an eternal struggle of "we don't have LoD 1.10 so this game sucks" and every topic made on this site is just rabble with no point, i.e. agree or disagree about a rehashed topic, trolling, nerd rage, and flaming.
I think I've seen a couple nice posts on cool ideas to the game and detailed theory crafting on MF. I simply don't have the time and in some cases the knowledge to even contribute to something worthwhile.
I don't feel I can contribute to the random topic on hand either. I have a family going through anxiety and depression; I simply don't understand and can't say anything useful. The redundant talk of "be positive, don't take things for granted blah blah blah" doesn't really work or hit home to someone suffering... I suppose try to do charity work for homeless or seniors maybe cheering other people up will help you personally I dunno.
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I've been sort of trying to take it easy with posting, being this is where I work also sometimes I just need a break when I get stressed, so I come in do reports handle some business and then try to relax.
Yeah though conversation has definitely slowed and it makes me sad, this is the one part of the forum I didn't have to worry about that with really. I miss everyone.
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Yeh, I do. I've been smoking way too much as of recent, and I'm trying to cut down. Eventually I will quit but I need to get to the point where I'm only having one every two hours. I notice the more bored I get the more I'll go out for cigarettes, even if I just had one. Same thing when I'm anxious, depressed, or upset in any way. It's quite unpleasant to smoke two cigarettes within an hour yet I find myself doing that quite often regardless.
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Wise ElderBefore people more people started to realize and actually read the words instead of just trying to interpret the meaning.
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Man I was gonna come home tonight and install my OS on this thing and it was gonna be sweeeeet. Now I gotta wait till Monday! Total drag! Do they let you pick it up from their store? If I had known they didn't deliver on Saturday I would've picked it up on my way to work today.
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I was quite happy but apparently OCZ Agility 3's come locked with SATA 2 for some reason and you gotta do all these extra steps to make sure it's running at full speed. So even though it's fast right now, it will be even faster once I fix this problem. Cause now I'm only getting about 200mb read and write speeds.
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Wise ElderGot my meds switched over and things started getting better again.
All one has control over is the time they wake up until the time they go to sleep. When life was difficult like that for me years ago, I would try to find someone else who had worse problems and try to help them by giving them an ear. That way I redirected my focus to something other than myself.
One day I realized just how powerful that was quite by accident, literally an accident. I was walking down a sidewalk feeling bad about things in my life when this guy who was crossing the street near me fell backwards and nailed his head on the street corner. He had an epileptic seizure, hitting his head didn't help, before I new it I was putting my jacket over him and waiting for the ambulance. From that point forward my entire day totally changed, I was consumed in thought for what happened to that guy. It wasn't until the following day I stopped and realized I had completely lost focus of my own problems which up until that point had consumed my thoughts.
I think that the depression had a lot to do with having way too much downtime and doing the same shit everyday. When all you do is play video games or read you kind of get stuck in a rut, at least I do anyways. I spent the last two days brainstorming new activities to get involved in (some that even require exercise!) and today I made plans for this week to get out of the house and actually do those things. I'll be starting D&D again Wednesday! I haven't played Dungeons & Dragons since high school. I'm pretty excited. It's really refreshing to have a week full of interesting things ahead and it's really lifted my spirits.
For the longest time I was just dealing with my issues and doing the same things because I wasn't ready to expand my horizons and meet new people. I guess I kind of got a little bit stuck for a while there.
Another thing, I can't really switch my depression medication. I'm on 375mg of Effexor and the withdrawal symptoms are legendary, even if you decrease the dosage gradually. I am honestly fucking SCARED to have to switch my Effexor, especially considering I'm on such a high dose. If you look it up you'll know what I mean.
(Heavy emphasis on exercise and regular sleep schedule. Those are absolutely instrumental in breaking addiction, depression, and generally getting out of a "funk.")
I'm pretty much following your feedback completely, minus the keep a journal part. For some reason I feel worse every time I journal.
Thank you!
Glad I could help. Oh, and don't be afraid of the journal. It doesn't have to be overly introspective. Try just coming up with a joke or some amusing anecdote. The exercise is more to keep the mind at work (and not working on itself) than anything else. Idle hands and all that.
People on vacation and butthurt people leaving. The butthurt seems to attribute to a few posters I can name who no longer post here, some are on vacation, and well then there is the rest (which isn't much).
I'm reducing my posting to the point of nil; this site just brings me down with all the butthurt I simply don't care anymore. I also seem to get a lot of backlash for making fun of people's stupid posts (there are so many), while it doesn't bother me personally it sure gets old. Granted I don't have the best vocabulary and have trouble articulating my thoughts probably don’t help haha.
Everything is an eternal struggle of "we don't have LoD 1.10 so this game sucks" and every topic made on this site is just rabble with no point, i.e. agree or disagree about a rehashed topic, trolling, nerd rage, and flaming.
I think I've seen a couple nice posts on cool ideas to the game and detailed theory crafting on MF. I simply don't have the time and in some cases the knowledge to even contribute to something worthwhile.
I don't feel I can contribute to the random topic on hand either. I have a family going through anxiety and depression; I simply don't understand and can't say anything useful. The redundant talk of "be positive, don't take things for granted blah blah blah" doesn't really work or hit home to someone suffering... I suppose try to do charity work for homeless or seniors maybe cheering other people up will help you personally I dunno.
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Wise ElderYeah though conversation has definitely slowed and it makes me sad, this is the one part of the forum I didn't have to worry about that with really. I miss everyone.